what is 'sweena's blog' about?

When I started this blog two years ago, I've said this so many times but it's because I felt  unaccomplished and I wanted to change that. So I decided to do it in a way that I was most comfortable with, to write everything down as a way to express myself when I felt like I couldn't. Find a way to share my thoughts, in the hopes that someone might feel the same way and start a conversation. 

Anyone who knows me, knows that I hate small talk and that one of my favourite things to do is to have debates and just have a good old conversation about anything and everything. Not only that but at the time, it was and still is in some way, a good distraction. So starting a blog in the hopes to start conversations, to me, just made sense. 

The first time that I really shared my blog to everybody and not just small group of people was after I had published my ‘Embrace your culture’ post. When I saw the amount of positive feedback that I had gotten, it inspired to write about more, to talk about the things that I believed in. I know that I don't post that often but it honestly made a huge difference. Me, putting myself out there in the form of this blog was already a huge deal, especially as I was always the type of person that kept myself to myself. So it was pretty scary but it opened my eyes up too. Every time I wrote something new, people always started conversations and  it encouraged me to do so much more. 

I've always had the urge to try and make a difference. To me, no matter how small my voice is, it can still have an impact in trying to make a difference because it is still a voice amongst thousands of people who might also be talking about the same things. And me starting a blog acted as a trigger, in the sense that it really inspired me to do so much more than just write. I realised that if I wanted to be part of making a change in some way, I had to start putting myself more out there. So I started getting more involved with societies at university, I got involved in other small projects outside of university, as well as many other things. 

It feels weird to think about it now because there was really this version of me who was so afraid to be herself and I was literally holding myself back. Especially during my first year of uni, it was a weird and tough time, and trying new things and putting myself out there was just something I absolutely hated doing. I've mentioned this before in a previous post, but I was so concerned about what others thought about me, that I forgot that it didn't matter as long as I enjoyed what I did.  And it's crazy to look back at it because now I'm constantly wanting to try new things or meet new people and just put myself out there. And as I mentioned before, wanting to make a difference.

I didn't think that starting a blog would have such a huge impact on me. In some way, it makes me feel happy knowing that I have somewhere to go to write down all my thoughts and be able to share it to whoever I want. Even when things seem all over the place in my posts and I read it back, I just feel as if its a good representation as to how I feel about certain topics. Even this, as I'm writing it, I know that it's all over the place but it's just how everything flows in my brain. My blog is not meant to be some perfect essay, but rather like I have mentioned many thousands times not only in this posts but other posts that it's a way to express my views about anything and everything. 

Well guys, thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed this post. This blog is now 2 years old!! Thank you everyone who's been reading this since I first shared it! Hope you're all staying safe and looking after yourselves xxxxxx 

me clicking the publish button

- Sweena :-)