20 years old

On the 6th December 2018, I had turned 20 years old. Now, for the longest time I never really cared that I was about to turn 20 years old and that I was leaving my teen years behind. There are many reasons for this. One of the reasons being that nothing was going to change, I wasn't going to suddenly grow any taller, I wasn't going to become wiser and I certainly wasn't going to feel accomplished over the course of a few hours where I turn from 19 to 20. It was honestly just going to be a normal day for me, being at university, going to my one seminar of the day and then just watching a whole load of episodes of Friends on Netflix, stuffing my face with Krispy Kreme doughnuts which I caved into buying because it was my birthday and I should 'treat myself' for the day as well as listening to a bunch of Tamil songs from my 'Tamil Kuthu Songs' playlist on Spotify, having a one man rave in my small uni bedroom.

I thought that I should start my first blog post with this one just so I could feel a little accomplished with my life as a 20 years old, even if it going to be one reader, reading this blog post and even if that one reader is me. The point is, lately I've really been deeping the fact that I am a 20 year old who has achieved basically nothing when so many other 20 year olds have achieved so much. It just makes you think for a second, or in my case, for a whole week and even longer 'What have I accomplished?' 

That's when a few of friends, kindly and bluntly reminded me that not every accomplishment have to be a big thing. It could be small things, such as getting up in the morning, actually going to your lectures and making lunch. The point being is, ever since this has been pointed out to me, it has made me realise that I have accomplished so many things that I thought I wouldn't have been able to a few years or even months ago. For example, 2 years ago, when I had to retake my A-Levels, I thought my dreams of doing a Computer Science degree were over, never did I think that I would be in of the top 15 universities in the UK doing a Computer Science degree and although it was hard, I had gotten through a whole semester. That to others, may be a small thing or not even an accomplishment at all but to me, its a big deal and its a huge accomplishment. Small things like that and even going to university social events are something that I always dread even though I would love to go, and I end up going and its such a huge accomplishment and I am so grateful that I did because I end up having the best time and enjoying myself so much. These things may be small to others but a big thing to you and you have every right to be proud of yourself and feel accomplished. And for that, I congratulate you and I am proud of you, if you've gotten out of bed this morning even though you really wanted to stay in bed all day. You have accomplished one of the many things today and I am so proud of you🙌

The point of this first blog is just to say, you may not think that you have achieved much just like I did, but it's because we tend to ignore the small things that we should be proud of and once we stop ignoring those things and be proud of ourselves for achieving things, we wouldn't be so harsh on ourselves.

On that note, if you ever feel like nobody believes in you or you don't believe in yourself. I'll always believe in you and that won't ever change. You have so much potential and you're all on your way to achieve so much greatness.

Sweena x