Recap of 2019

HELLOOOOO FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSS

Helloooo!! I know it's been a big fat minute, but here I am! Back better than ever, with a recap of 2019.  

How crazy is it that 2019 is coming to an end, what's even crazier is that a whole decade is coming to an end and there's honestly so much that I've learnt throughout the last ten years. When I think about where I was at the beginning of 2019 to where I am now it honestly baffles me but as sappy as it's going to sound, I am proud of the person that I have become. And for those who are reading this and have known me for years would know that me, feeling proud of myself is a very rare occasion. I am also content with how everything is finally working out, it's been a long and overwhelmingly hard journey to get to this sense of satisfaction that I have been feeling lately but we've finally gotten there lads, so WAHEYYY! 

me celebrating 24/7

There are many things that I have realised and learnt this year, but one thing that is the most important of them all is putting yourself first. I've always been the type of person that will put a friend first, make sure they're okay before thinking about how I was feeling. Or even if I wasn't feeling the best, it didn't matter because I needed to make sure that my friend was doing well first. And I'm not saying that I regret helping my friends out. I love helping my friends out and that's something I will always do but if there's one thing that I wish I could have changed is making sure that I thought of myself the same way I thought and looked after my mates. 

I deal with stress and anxiety in a weird way and sometimes there are moments where I feel as if I still don't know how to deal with it but once I acknowledge that this is what I'm experiencing, I know that I need to focus on myself and not ignore it, which is what I would have done before. Focusing on myself is something that I had been told by so many people throughout the years but something I constantly ignored because my stubborn self didn't think that it would actually make a difference. But here I am thriving and doing better than ever xxx 

Also, another piece of advice, sometimes it is good to let some friendships go. Because at the end of the day, losing friendships isn't a bad thing, it just means that the course of the friendship has come to an end naturally. Friends will always be friends, memories will always last and the person was a good friend during that period of time in life but circumstances change and so do people and you just won't be on the same wavelength anymore. Don't force yourself to carry on a friendship and definitely don't question yourself. That's a big no no. Cherish the people that you're surrounded with now and be in the moment. There are some people that are so interesting that you know that you won't meet a person like that again, so enjoy your time with them and create good old memories.

cherish your F.R.I.E.N.D.S and give them a big phat hug :)

AHH, its funny how life works huh? I would sit here and type so much more, all the lessons learnt and everything but I don't want to bore you. I just wanted to pop on here, say a hello, give an update and let you all know everything going GREAT and I hope that you all had a good Christmas and have a FANTABULOUS New Year. Can't believe a decade is over. 

Signing out,

Sweenaaaaaaaa :) xxxxxx